What is this pain I feel

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What is this pain I feel
That takes hold of me
From time to time.
A blackness that engulfs me.
Hollow from the inside.

Yet sometimes it just seems,
Like it never happened.
I glide among my peers,
With wit and charm.
Like I belong.

The weeks flow among the rest.
When a voice turns.
That’s not right.
What you did the other day.
My confusion begins.

Chaos burns.
As I struggle and fall.
Just trying to stay ahead.
Just trying to stay a float.
Until I wake.

Shadows of what I have done.
The mistakes I have found.
Beyond the expected norm.
The faces always talk.
The blame is directed towards me.

As I sink and think.
About why I’m like this.
Thoughts become dark.
Light doesn’t shine anymore.
I realize I’m alone.

What is this pain I feel
That takes hold of me
From time to time.
A blackness that engulfs me.
Hollow from the inside.

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Very intense - good poetry, I really liked it

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I agree it was intense. I thought of myself while reading it because it feels sometimes like I’m covered in someones false idea of me. A rumor, or bad opinion of myself was like the blackness engulfing, and shadows of what I have done is like the guilt I feel for everything. 1 up!

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That poem struck a chord with me. I went through some terrible times during the past year and I felt utterly alone. It was, indeed, like a blackness would descend from time to time and I would just be totally lost. It was an intense and painful experience. I still have feelings like that, but they are much less intense now. I hear music from my younger days and it makes me sad and want to go back to those days.

Best wishes,
Padster

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