So if you could pick a thing, you hate and wish to overcome the most, about schizophrenia, what would it be now?
For me its the uncertainty of how the world is. I always get lost in the voices, which tell me “youre a fallen angel” and all of my previous experiences of 20+ years as a human are erased. I cant just say “go away voices”, because they are real and make me panic. Its not that easy to ignore voices which can read your mind all of the time and condemn you to hell.
For me it’s the anhedonia. It’s so hard not being able to like anything!
I guess avolition. I struggle a lot with that.
Not being able to read anything long. Reading a book is just a fantasy now. That plus avolition.
My schizophrenia isn’t my biggest problem. My weight is what I need to get under control - that’s what I’m struggling with right now. My SZ is manageable. Take my meds, use my coping strategies, I’m good to go.
I have trouble reading long paragraphs as well…
I figure others do as well which is why I always space out my sentences like I’m doing now.
Hope it helps while reading my drivel!
Sympathy to others that causes one to lose focus on himself, that, if you overcome, you have come a long run into success.
The need to overcome.
Need to space out writing - comes with the territory of taking some antipsyschotics. Its not your fault. I type the way I would want to read, too.
I would say fear.
I have a lot of fear because of things I have seen and felt.
I also fear stressful situations because they seem to bring on more hallucinations.
Fear and depression.
Lack of focus or focusing on the “wrong” thing
Definitely paranoia…its killing me.