Due to my current mental state along with my living situation, I am considering putting myself in the psychiatric hospital again. I don’t want to get too deep into what’s going on, but I will say that I have been having suicidal thoughts that aren’t getting any better and I’m currently in a very hectic living situation that I can’t get out of since I’m under adult guardianship due to my disabilities. The only way I feel like I can be safe with myself is if I turn myself into the hospital, as much as I don’t want to do that.
The only two problems are that I’m conflicted because I have a lot of good things happening for me soon but I can’t keep tolerating my situation, and that I’ve never been to an adult ward. I’ve been to child and adolescent wards as a youngster but I’m 19, going on 20, and I’ve never been to the adult ward. My behavioral consultant is fighting to keep me out of the hospital, but I feel like going to the hospital is inevitable with this situation that I’m in.
If you’ve been in the adult ward, what was your experience like?