Sometimes when I try to sleep, I end up lying for hours in bed, worrying about different scenarios.
This time, I’m worried about what will happen if I get ill again.
I feel fine at the moment. I mean, I have a headache from being so tired, and I think I have a cold, but I don’t have loud voices nor anxiety or restlessness, and I’m coherent.
My worries are… What if I get ill again, what would happen? How would I get to a psych hospital, who would take me, would I be able to ask for help, would I make the person I asked for help worry, and would they believe me?
What if I cried? I almost never cry, especially in front of others. What if I can’t control my crying?
What if I end up being committed, and I’d have to quit my education once again?
What if I end up so afraid to ask for help that something bad happens?
And WHY do I all of a sudden worry about this when I feel fine?