I found what helped me pull through a lot of my emotional woes and thinking problems was coming to the conclusion something was telepathically manipulating my mind. This did not just come from out of a vacuum mind you, I started to seemingly communicate with something telepathically and it told me how it was manipulating my mind years previously and then did demonstrations seemingly of how this was achieved, such as on verbal cue seemingly inhibiting cognition on the fly, or changing my psychological state.
I tried to be objective about the experience and explored what exactly I was dealing with. I analyzed all the different theories, such as psychotronics, and I came to the final conclusion relatively early on that the experience fit the category of the paranormal. I spent a lot of time engaging in communication with it deeper and deeper, and I am definitely convinced it is not the product of my subconscious mind.
Anyway, by understanding something was influencing my consciousness I found it helped me to identity what I discerned to be a manipulation and not a natural product of my consciousness. This gave me new grounding in the years to come, and I really think this saved my life to come to this new sense of reality.
I’ve believed this for a great many years now and my position hasn’t really changed all that much, although it has evolved, I really don’t see it changing. I’ve been on very powerful doses of antipsychotics and my telepathic attacks/hallucinations were in their climax then and not now.
I understand this pisses a great many of you off, but that is my experience with this situation. If there is ever a "cure’, let me know, and I will happily try to forget about this whole mess. Until then, I will continue to talk about it!