My mind is always on weight loss, quitting cigs and alcohol. Why am I so scared to live?
I get repetitive thoughts, hard to even watch a tv show at times, think back on weird things that happen and why, weird things I did and why, goes on and on, try not to but no luck always goes back to it, just to much trauma to erase from my mind
I always think sbout things like I bet that happened somewhere. Today a RV pulled out in front if me and it had 2giant bikes on the back and I wondered where they keep them at the park. Like do they just throw them up against the RV st night or then I thought there is probably a RV park somewhere that has sheds.
Or when I’m driving I think I wonder if anyone of sll of history had stepped on a patch of grass alongside the road or touched the multitude of trees.
I think the same thing about the grass and the trees. Wile hiking. I sometime walk up and touch the tree and think I was the only one to touch it.
Sex and getting off this medication. Starting a career, being successful
At the moment having to move from where I am is a prime one. I try to deflect from it by thinking of other things but it’s not easy.