When don’t want to play video games?
I take big poops
Why are you getting full of video games
I play for half an hour a day the rest of the time i lay in bed and stare
Cool. Why you don’t meditate
I have bad thought disorder cant meditate
Try visualisation mediation or breathing of course you can. Accept your thoughts and let them go
People usually think meditation is sitting in lotus position for and hours and not thinking anything. There is meditation like that but it’s advanced meditation usually done by masters . There is tons of different types of meditation you can try
I get bad intrusive thoughts its almost like i have turrets but in the mind
You can observe your bad thoughts it’s also meditation. But observe with kindness and compassion
You can also do mantra meditation doesn’t have to be religious just repeat some words you like about positivity. For example repeat word I’m positive out loud or silent or in your mind and try to focus on its energy. It’s active kind of meditation. Do it for 5 min
watch youtube or anime / read manga or nonfiction books about survival and journeys of navigation of the outdoors
I like sitting in the dark silently and burning candle and incense. Staring and candle with deep reverence to fire doing nothing but I like to do that in late evenings