I feel unsettled today. I guess it is related to the fact that I’ve met the boss and we talked today. Since I’m now working in the same office with my mom, everybody seems to know a lot about my history and my present. Mom said she told every single person she knew about my disorder. Even strangers got to know it. So the boss talked a lot about what she had heard about me. It is odd to hear so much about myself from strangers. Today mom told them I’m dying for a relationship. I have never told her anything like this. I think she put words into my mouth. I haven’t get used to my label and still feel uneasy with it.
The boss told me she wanted me to work for her in accounting on a long term basis. Idk if I should be happy. I don’t like accounting, I’m doing this only because I got trapped into this situation. I have got degrees and certificates. But I’m doing a job I don’t put any of those into use.
The boss makes me work with someone who is kind of difficult. She wanted me to take over part of the job of a clerk. She said she cannot rely on that person.
Back in the office, I had a better job arrangement last week when this clerk was away from work for a few days for no reasons. The manager gave me paid lunch break and longer work hours. When the clerk comes back this week, she insisted to cut my work hours to the minimum and did not allow me to have paid lunch break. She claims that otherwise she would have a lot more work to do as she would be required to arrange for provident funds for me. She said she needed to make sure my status is a part time.
I feel a little sad and I think i can expect a lot of emotions at work.