can not watch TV, other than documentaries. People acting makes me so uncomfortable! Rarely I watch a movie.
Can not listen to some music certain times. Triggers grandiose, especially the cheesy love songs! ruin my day.
Be relaxed. Coming here on the forum, helps me talk and socialize and spend time but unless I am on a sedating medication, I simply can not just lay on the sofa and rest like normal people do I do not even sit on the sofa unless I have a guest over
Making a minor mistake. If I accidentally take a wrong turn while driving, or tell Mr. Star there are 5 minutes left on the timer when there are actually 5:30, I become overwhelmed with guilt and start shaking. I think, “how could I possibly do something so wrong? This is why nobody wants to be my friend! I’m a horrible monster who never does anything right!”
(No, because if I am, then I’m lying, so I’m not a liar after all.)
But for real, I can’t plan things from start to finish.
Give me a project, and I’ll get so wrapped up in the details, that by the time the first deadline is due, the only thing I’ll have, is a stupid look on my face.
Watching T.V. and movies.- Triggers delusions. And I can’t hear what they are saying due to me being hard of hearing anyway.
Making conversation in bars or lounges or restaurants or at parties.- I’m hard of hearing and I can’t hear what people are saying so I can’t participate in conversations.
Being in a group of people interacting- I get paranoid of one or several of the people in the group, making it hard for me to socially interact.
Taking daily showers- I struggle with motivation. This is very difficult for me so, I take one shower a week.
Doing housework- I struggle with motivation. This is very difficult for me so, I live in an assisted living facility where I let them do my housework once a month on average. They would do more, but, I don’t let them.
Weekly shopping- I struggle with motivation. This is very difficult for me, so, I order groceries and other necessities either by phone or online, almost exclusively.
Exercise- I struggle with motivation. This is very difficult for me so, I practice a gentle form of exercise known as gentle hatha yoga. Which is very relaxing and not taxing at all. I also practice keyboards as an exercise, which is also relaxing.