What are five things you wouldn’t want people to say about you?
1.Crazy(I am more strange/weird)
2.Lazy(I think I am not lazy)
3.soft(I am a soft person)
4.irresponsible(I had some responsibility)
5.overthinking(I really wanna beat this shit)
The things that hurt my feelings are… I’m manipulative… I’m controlling… I’m aloof and cold… I’m uncaring
But now… on the flip side… the stuff that people say that make me feel better
I’m patient… I’m kind… I’m funny… I’m a good person…
It really makes me feel better when people say they enjoy my company.
I’m so tall (I hate being reminded of it!)
I’m lazy (no, its negative symptoms)
I’m stupid (something I only accept if I tell it to myself)
I never listen (a favourite of my husband)
I am just trying to get attention by showing my symptoms (horrible thought!)
That one hits me hard too… I do appreciate things… I do appreciate what my family has sacrificed and done for me… but I just can’t always show it.
I do feel lucky that my family does know I do appreciate what they have done.
I have written letters letting them know this. But when people NOT in my family try to tell my family to write me off because I don’t seem to appreciate anything… that one hurts deeply.
I keep writing letters to my family to try and express what I can’t just say right then and there.
I would like to be invisible so no one would would care.
I’m waiting for someone to tell me I look good in tight jeans. Could be a long wait.