Ive been worried for some time that im crossing a line beyond sz and into insanity. I get these dream like states where my eyes are open. As an example I was seeing and feeling the emotions of what it would be like to be a kid walking on a trail with my mother. A bear was on the trail and you can figure the rest out on your own. Other examples are just all showing me how fragile life is. A lot of us humans get to die of old age. But I remember, since 4 or 5 yrs old, always being bothered about how insane things do happen. Life is dangerous. I am getting tired of being disturbed on a deep level that inside me you will find organs and tissue and blood, etc., and im sure people are getting tired of me saying this kind of stuff. Move on right? I know its just a fact of life we all know and have to deal with. But i just cannot wrap my mind around the idea of living things. Anyway, that aside, i wish these images and dream states would cease. They feel so real.
As a side note: i just want to apologize for past behaviours and being the way i am. Im just very distracted and have reason to think ive been in a mild psychosis for quite a while. If i ever offended you on this forum, im very sorry.