I am schizophrenic for past 9 years now.
However, well functioning, with minimum doses. I developed some strategies to help myself drag out of what had become of me. Below is the link:
Ways to Become a Schizo-Ninja: thesaneschizo.wordpress.com/2016/10/15/featured-content/
You have to learn how to spend long periods of time alone, and endure incredible mental and spiritual anguish. I liken it unto special forces training or perhaps being incarcerated for a crime that I didnât commit. The worst part is missing out on life going on all around you. You get to watch other people grow and progress through the stages of life while you stay stuck in a rut.
I do all of this stuff but I still have significant symptoms. I think I am just more treatment resistant than someone like you. I am also very rational at least most of the time, when I get paychotic I canât think straight.
Iâve tried lower doses but the symptoms just get too overwhelming.
Great piece! I loved the logic especially! For szâs, I think logic and pragmatism are skills we have to build, theyâre not common sense to us like normals.
I also like the title, schizo-ninja, ( AKA schiz infiltrator or sz spy or the sz spook hahaha)
I take infiltration into normalsâ society very seriously, as well. I just put this spin on it: I am a paranoid sz. People would exclude me and stigmatize me. That is logical, as normals are societal creatures who enjoy conformity and predictability.
Predict what they want to be predictable, and you can pass!! So, I watch normals for their tiny micro expressions and try to predict what they want to happen next. Looking away? They must want me to leaveâI do so. Looking at me? Maybe they want my attentionâI give them it through eye contact, a brief smile, and then ending the eye contact.
These normals are highly alert creatures, but if you know their âred flagsâ you can avoid sending up one of the red flags, and theyâll never know a sz walked among them.
Predict what they want to be predictable, and you can pass!! So, I watch normals for their tiny micro expressions and try to predict what they want to happen next. Looking away? They must want me to leaveâI do so. Looking at me? Maybe they want my attentionâI give them it through eye contact, a brief smile, and then ending the eye contact.
I agree with your insights about âPeopleâ. I am a paranoid schizo as well. People are distasteful about me and I am distasteful about them!