Im feeling so much internally since Ive become aware of my feelings that Im finding it difficult to sleep.
I spent a night on the street some time ago and dont know how i managed to sleep.
I feel like my eyes are almost permanently peeled open.
Ive tried sleeping by forcing them shut and it gave me musculoskeletal pain.
I miss seeing lights and it seems all that was just from trauma. But it spared me from feeling negative for a while.
Ive fainted from exhaustion once and another time from stress. But even them im aware and alert but its like im in a coffin while my body is resting.
I feel at this point only thing that feels safe is leaving my body.
This pandemic is rising my stress levels too. Feels like no one is close and im perpetually isolated.