Goddess Annette commands me to lick her vagina. I don’t know how to lick a voice. Ridiculous.
Mr.Thoughtless is taking over and makes me dive in a psychotic hebephrenic episode.
Zyprexa killed voices. But I still have the unusual belief that I have captain beefheart’s mustache intertwined with my brain neurons
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I also believe that Karlheinz Stockhausen is my predecessor. He opened the way for me. He prepared world for my arrival as a savior of this world.
Vulva, not vagina. My mistake
I’m sorry. I have a voice that’s asks if I want to make love then tries to compel me to hump. It’s embarrassing.
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Captain Beefheart seems like he led a positive life. But I know how a general delusion can break apart, when you begin to analyze a person’s “catalogue”.
Do you continue to learn about Captain Beefheart? I was told once to go on a “diet of the mind” and I abided by that.
Also how are you making out with the “tumor” thought pattern?
Do you succumb?
It seems he had paranoid schizophrenia. That’s what I have heard. What do you mean about the tumor? I feel it growing in my head and expanding
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I did a little the first time and then once when I was just waking up and it caught me of guard. No one saw me thankfully.
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You spoke on here previously about how your mustache could be signifying you have a brain tumor. But logically, there is no causation for this, and there’s not even correlation to this. I’m sure you’re safe.
I suppose you can’t afford to get it checked out??
Interesting about Captain Beefheart being schizophrenic. You may have schizophrenia in common, but this is just coincidence. He was a human being so there will be some commonality.
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I don’t worry so much now about the tumor.
It’s better.
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Wow that’s really good. My delusions are more rigid, but they do change.
When I was 16, I got paralyzed thinking I had cancer. I didn’t tell anyone. Plus it was already hard to cry, so I would go to he bathroom and look at my self in the mirror. The reflection helped bring tears. It was all a delusion. 3 years later I discovered my favorite actor(Brando)who could also break down in a way like that. I had created a space with my cancer secret, and he filled the space and became the next delusion. And it branched from there. Mostly due to his movies. But frankly the only sticky ones are from 1972. He does honor his wife in both, they possess romantic properties if you analyze them.
But because I didn’t find success in business I gravitated to the one that is more self deprecating. And perhaps it throws shade on almost everyone. I’m no longer that resentful. I didn’t know my government would take care of me for starters.
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My lymph nodes were swollen I felt them in my armpits and hips. Even detected masses in my nipples. This was before the internet. A mixture of hoping it was nothing, and fear of confronting that it could be something made me procrastinate. I can compartmentalize a lot and actually completed high school with this in the back of my mind. The stress created a worse form of schizophrenia I really believe.
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Yes. I see. I feel I have something in my brain expanding with certain triggers. Then I thought it was a tumor, i had no way to find out, and now I think again that it’s mustache
Tumors do happen. But it would be a coincidence with regard to your mustache thoughts.
Is there anyway you can see a doctor for peace of mind? You said you couldn’t afford a book… I want to help you… but I don’t know if I can.
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I can’t afford it. But it’s better now. Mustache is somehow spiritual. I don’t know if scanners can detect it
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I have it in my heart to see that you get a book… But my hands are tied bc it’s inappropriate to let go of anonymity. Manipulation can occur bc we all have differing forms of this disorder. And I think we are creative more so than the general public so it adds up. And some are more higher functioning to boot.
(It’s what I read in the guidelines.)
But how do you get your meds if you don’t mind me asking…
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What do you mean? How do I get them? How do I buy them?
How do you afford them? (That’s what I meant).
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Oh. My father pays for pdoc and meds.
I am not on disability yet. You? You have income?
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