I’m getting a bit worried here.
My voices are starting to control my eating habits. After I increased Invega, I started feeling hungry all the time.
My voice’s reaction to this was to decide I can’t eat.
I’m down to one meal a day, and only when I’m hungry enough to say “screw it” and eat even though I don’t feel I deserve it.
Last time it was like this, it lasted for two weeks before I was admitted to a psych ward. It CANNOT happen again. Out of the question.
I’ve told my psych nurse about it, and she says to reduce my stress.
I’m working on it, but it’s hard when I feel burdened with guilt.
I don’t know where I’m going with this…
I’m just worried, and scared of telling anyone in real life aside from the psych nurse, because I don’t want to be hospitalized.
(I have nothing against hospitals, but it would make me have to restart my education again)
What do I do? I’m scared of losing control or reaching the point of no return, sanity-wise
I went through a phase in my teens when I was scared to swallow, so I lived on liquid foods for a time. I can’t fully understand what you are going through though as it was a separate experience to my voices. I hope your situation improves soon! The voices can be very convincing but they are not real, they are liars. (Try telling this to myself! It may sound different then. But it helps to believe it.)
Perhaps distract yourself whilst you prepare and eat food like listen to music to drown out voices? I hope you feel better soon!
Try and remember the voices are just bullies, and have no power to actually hurt you. If you eat, they can whine and complain, but they can’t do anything else. Give the med increase a couple weeks to take effect.
Does your school have an office of disability services you could go to? In my country, schools are legally required to give you extensions on your work if you’re in the hospital.
I found small things like crackers or protein/granola bars help when I feel like I can’t eat. Or small things like a couple baby carrots or pickles. It’s still not the best but it’s better than nothing and you can use it to help build up to bigger meals.
You are strong @Berru I know you can make it through this we’re all here for you!!
I told my friend, and he made me eat with him. He knows it’s easier for me to eat if someone is eating with me.
He also encouraged me to take a sick-day tomorrow to stress down.
Will do.
I talk ■■■■ to mine. I’m sure it makes me look “crazy” sometime but if I’m in my house who cares? I will literally say things to rude voices like, “You are a moron. I need to eat to be healthy. I’m going to have a sandwich now, moron.” or “If I took your horrible advice I would become sick you idiot.” or “No wonder you’re just a voice with no body, you have no idea how to take care of a body. Pathetic.”
I don’t know if it’s recommended but sometimes just talking back like I would if an actual person said something that rude to me helps. Plus I find announcing something helps with following through and actually doing it. Like, “I am going to eat this granola bar now because I need the calories and this will help my body stay healthy!” It’s a little eccentric but it helps with my motivation.
my voice once told me to take a cold shower everyday ,i did first time ,the water is really cold i cant stand it ,and second time ,my voice told me again,so i did ,but i catch a cold ,after i catch cold i wear lots cloth and hat ,big sock big scarf ,i feel like i am a alien ,and fall asleep ,after my nap ,i feel better ,from then on i never take a cold shower any more
