First time poster here. Was wondering if anyone else had this delusion and how they were handling it.
I have an internal voice in my head of an old friend and it is always putting me down. I sufferer from the delusion that I am telepathic but only to some degree and that I am stuck in this one persons head and they can’t get me out so they are being mean to me. If I try and get into any other friends head it doesn’t work (they say cause I am unbalanced).
Hello moghtymike and welcome to the forum. I have a similar delusion. I too occasionally hear the voice of an old friend. To me though, it sounds like that person is having conversations with other people throughout the day. It is a bit of a psychic delusion as well. It sounds so real sometimes but I know it is simply a symptom of schizophrenia. My advice is try to keep your mind busy and don’t focus on the voice or what it is saying. Hope that helps. Have a good day mightymike.
I have the voices of multiple friends who I hung out with in high school. One particular voice who was my best friend at the time was treating me like ■■■■ in my head and I at the time thought it was real so I cut off all contact with him as well as the rest of my friends in real life. I’ve basically isolated myself because of this. One friend I treated badly is my adversary in my head but I try to treat him as nicely as I can. One “friend” I got high with who wasn’t very nice to me has acted like he is a God in my head and has tyranny over everyone. It’s kind of ridiculous what the voices want me to believe actually. It’s an ongoing daily war with them but over the past year I have come to terms that this isn’t real. It has taken over ten years to get to this point but I am starting to deal with the reality of the situation. I try not to believe the voices are somehow connected to my old friends but it is hard at times.
Curious as to what medications you guys are on and has it helped.
My history include 8mg risperidone then went from 4mg risperidone+2mg abilify all the way up to 20 abilify with clonzapam (where I am at currently). This hasn’t done much but improve my mood. I find the clonzapam really helps with anxiety. I don’t normally stay up late, but with this medication I can and it won’t affect me much. My pdoc want me to go on clonzapine so going to try that next. Heard good things about asenapine so if clonzapine doesn’t work hoping to try that next. Only problem with asenapine positive symptoms only seem to go away for a year to three years max then come back (this would still be a godsend).
The voice from the friend is so bad I find it hard to listen to conversations or movies, but if I really try hard I can.
I have pretty much the exact same thing. I feel as though I have some sort of telepathic link with my good friend from high school, but haven’t spoken to him beside the odd time in around 10 years. I feel though he has more control and for some reason I am stuck inside his head giving him my endless thoughts then he will make fun of me to try and get me out of his head.
I should also note I had my another one of my bestfriends in my head but was able to get him out. I told him a few weeks later and never heard his voice again. I also confronted the person I hear now (nicely over the phone) and he seemed surprise but I still hear him. Probably because he was already in my head once I had told him.
I thought that some of this was based on reality myself. However, I highly doubt the voices are connected to anyone of this earth. They may be real in the sense that they exist in some plane of existence but I am almost 100% sure that my old friends (and quite probably yours as well) are completely unaware of what is going on in my head or anyone else. So saying that when you do bring this up with them or confront them don’t be surprised if they act like they don’t know what you’re talking about because they probably don’t. I believe in the supernatural and maybe even telepathy but I don’t think normal everyday people have any ability like that. 99.99% of people probably don’t have any psychic abilities, myself included.
I am curious how’s you guys cope and what medication you have found works?
Do you try and look for evidence as to why it can’t be real? I find when I do that the voice will try and convince me it is not coming from me. However, my pdoc says it’s best to treat it as a separate entity then myself.
I actually didn’t look up schizophrenia on the internet to see what it was until a couple years ago. I lived in denial of my diagnosis for years thinking this was real. I ended up on invega which helped and I also take certain supplements that help. If you can afford them, try white mulberries, l-theanine, sarcosine, mangosteen, omega 3, vitamin b-complex. If you can’t afford all of that, I highly recommend the white mulberries and l-theanine. You can get dried white mulberries in a health food store in bulk. I take a handful everyday, it’s supposed to lower dopamine. If I didn’t take supplements I don’t know if I could have gone on because I had a break after I did synthetic cannibinoids. It almost ruined my life but I’ve slowly been recovering after I switched to invega and started taking some supplements. Don’t take what the voices say at face value. They seem to have an agenda and I don’t think it’s in my best interest (maybe not yours either). I treat them as if they are beings from another realm which I’m not sure if it helps but that’s how I treat them. You can usually tell which voices are negative and which one’s are positive. Some say you should treat them with love to turn negative energy into positive energy. However, I just try to deny them.
I still hear voices of old friends. Not sure what to make of it, but the voices act like they want me dead or at the very least for me to fail in life. They seem to think I wronged them with my choices in life and are intent on punishing me for them. They also seem to not really be them but they refer to themselves by my old friends names and have the same sounding voices. At first I thought they had hacked into my mind to sabotage me on one hand and possibly make me god on the other hand. Seems more like sabotage now.
I don’t think they are really them in any form, but I do think they are demons, aliens, etc. I think they are real beings in some form or another that are taking advantage of physical pitfalls in my body. I’d like to think it’s all in my head but it’s really hard to believe. They seem like they have their own personalities and thought patterns so it’s hard to explain that it’s my mind creating this.
I feel the exact same way. I have got rid of this one voice a few times pretending it was my subconscious but always comes back. Took me a very long time to trick myself to believing that though. Personally now don’t think the voice is my subconscious because 1) it will no longer let me do that 2) I feel as though the voice was still playing games on me even when I had tricked myself only I didn’t believe it [for example I would hear old thoughts it would say every now and then and it would do certain tricks it does now that I know for sure I’m not doing].
I am pretty sure that if this person were to die I would stop hearing their voice the instant they went brain dead. The only thing stopping me from lashing out is this person seems to hear my every thought and would see me coming.
In my mind it is absolutely coming from this person despite everyone I care about and that cares for me saying the opposite. It makes sound efx of stuff I have barely heard for example I mixed up a singer with Dallas Green earlier then 3-5 hours later heard a part of some indie song I haven’t heard in around 10 years since I was in University. What makes this even weirder is there is no way I would know that song or my subconscious would play it cause I am not an indie music fan anymore and haven’t been for the same amount of 10 years.
This happens with other sounds too. I know it’s coming from the person and they are messing with me for no other reason then the fact I am schizophrenic. In my mind true meaning behind our type of schizophrenic is that we have no filter and others can hear our thoughts but we can’t control what we say like they can. They can control it by saying pretty much what they want to say while we are stuck sending every thought we think to that particular person.
Sad part is the person that’s sending me voices says it’s my fault yet prevents me from going back to thinking it’s just my subconscious.
I’ve been down the path of trying to prove to myself that it’s real. Now I’m actively trying to disprove it and I am trying my hardest to become “sane” by shutting out the voices. I battle them everyday and have gotten to the point where I think that what’s happening to me isn’t the same reality others are experiencing. Then I go out in public and hear external auditory hallucinations which makes it hard. I do believe this is a mental illness though, whether it’s a reality or if it’s all in my head is another story. However, the healthier I get physically and mentally the more the symptoms subside which makes me think that it really may not be real after all.
What you are experiencing with the external auditory hallucinations happened to me. Except only when I thought the voice was my subconscious. I rarely heard the internal voices but was never comfortable outside even with friends. The only time I was comfortable outside was when no one was around except me or me and my parents.
Now I rarely hear external hallucinations. But always as soon as I wake up till I go to bed I hear internal voices. And recently will hear the internal voice in my REM state dreams from that same person.
If it helps any I would far prefer only hearing external hallucinations outside vs internal all day long.