My voices are taunting me, they say:
You liar! hypocrite!
One day it will become you, its morphing. You will become a monster one day. One day you really will push your husband down the stairs. Goddamn liar. Liar, liar, pants on fire, ha! Ha!ha!ha! cackle cackle. Liar liar one day you will be that monster you are such a liar. Hurt yourself then you will be real.
Oh God its incessant, need to see doc, need to see doc, need help. But then it dies down again, but always that dormant monster scares me…
Its so good to tell you guys this stuff, to get it off my chest. I feel an urgent agitation and excitement inside but its bad and in the background its always the voices saying
You liar, you hypocrite, you’re just pretending everything!
thank God its out