I found a new attribute to sum up myself; I’m useless. Useless.
I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I’m stuck in time for almost two years, I’m not learning, not improving, I can’t find a job and I can’t study, Im disconnected from my
family, friends and reality of life, I’m in a very
unhealthy relationship, I feel so weak, and my diet is crap, I don’t exercise, I don’t feed
my mind, or my body or my soul, I can’t read, I can’t do anything useful.
Just… I need someone to give the hand and pull me out from the mug but it seems I’m too deep for anyone to reach.
I haven’t seen my psychiatrist for months. I can’t talk to her.
And my kid? He will hate me soon as he get the clue about things.
I’m not posting this in Diagnosed because I’m not sz. Like in the real life, I don’t fit anywhere.
I mean, everybody hates me. Those who maybe don’t they play with me.
I said it, a dark thread. Sorry people.