I just think I have the love curse. Like I’m in “lack of sex hell”. Where god does everything he could to keep me from having any real type of relationship with a girl. I’m oh so close many times, but in the end it never works out.
in 2009 I had a relationship kind of but I was psychotic . And she treated me like crap… gave me drugs. It ■■■■■■ up my life. It’s her birthday like a couple days ago and this time of the year triggers me a bit no matter what. maybe it’s a delusion that I’m cursed to be alone. But I’ve seen some weird things in my time on earth I wouldn’t put it past anybody… what would be the point in keeping me cursed my whole life.