I told him all about the depression and told him I was going to hang myself on Wednesday but I couldn’t find anything strong enough to do the job.
He was first going to put me in hospital, then decided the home visiting mental health team might do. I talked my way out of it because I hate those guys and I don’t want anyone in my house.
He is tapering me off latuda and I am going back on to invega, which is good news.
He has also increased my lexapro to 20mg.
He gave me clearance to work three full time days per week which I am happy about because then I can quit the return to work plan and really be a part of my new friendly team and get some work done.
I didn’t tell him about the codeine though, I forgot.
I’m shocked to hear that turtle. I’m sad and shocked. Hopefully it was just the fact that Latuda didn’t agree with you. Suicidal ideation is a sure sign that there’s a problem with meds.
I understand what you mean @anon84763962. I’ve been through some dark places in the time since this illness has started. I’ve been hospitalized twice for suicidal and homicidal thoughts. the homicidal thoughts were about my brother, he is incredibly abusive towards people and animals.
I’m glad you got some adjustments in your meds. You probably resented your psychiatrist’s being unable to help you emotionally. I wouldn’t tell anyone I was going to commit suicide if I really meant to do so. You might have been trying to impress him with the strength of your depressed mood. I got depressed over the period of a year myself and tried to commit suicide, but the method I chose was insufficient. There is nothing more serious in life than suicide or taking some other person or person’s life or lives After a few attempts, my daughter DID take her own life. You’ll have to wait for an upturn in your feelings.
