You did not care about me
yet, you did not leave me alone,
when I wanted to go.
I should have kept to my word
When I said No.
Because I knew this interaction
Would never grow.
Into something healthy,
So I’m Sorry.
I didn’t care about you
Either.
But that doesn’t mean
I’d ignore you
Neither.
With no explanation
That would provide
Confirmation of an end.
The truth is better than no end.
I appreciate honesty
It gives me a sense of
tranquillity.
If only I had told you this sooner
That would have been way cooler.
Although now is better than never
And thanks to your apology,
I do feel Better.
That is nature I suppose:
If my heart sees you, As potential danger.
Why?
Maybe it is just because I am blue
That I see you as danger
Or am I acting like
A teenager?
I can’t change the danger language
That my heart speaks to me.
Is it an overreaction for
The Protection of my soul?
I don’t know.
Fortunately, this current situation did not break my soul.
Of that I am still in control.
But will the danger signal ever go?
Of that, I don’t know.
But it certainly feels like It is there to stay,
Even when I am not low,
Every single night and day.
And that is why I back away.
I am sorry
that I dragged you into my depressive life
That was not fair.
I should have stayed away from the start.
I was too impulsive
With my craving heart
Was it love, lust or a weird mixture of both?
I don’t know
I’m not that smart
I don’t know how to tell it all apart.
But I’m working on it
So that in the future
I can commit.
And not be afraid of breaking my heart
Without feeling like I will fall apart.
