Hello fellow friends. I have been having mental issues since I was young (I think) and have no been diagnosed with bipolar with psychosis (But they might change it to schizoaffective or full blown schizophrenia, as my psychosis doesn’t really follow a specific pattern.) Regardless, I’m not sure if I’m hallucinating or not. My hallucinations don’t occur through my eyes, but rather as massive smacking inner eye hallucinations that overlap my thought process. I don’t know how other people perceive their hallucinations, and was looking for some insight.
For example, I can be sitting here typing this, and some really messed up devil lady screams into my ear, but the hearing component is also not physical sound, but inner sound, if that makes sense. I’ve always been paranoid, and used to think I was possessed by various spirits when I was younger, and and I "heard’ (loud thoughts) voices back then. Now I’m paranoid about being paranoid, and paranoid that this is going to get worse. I have treatment and am on medicine now. Still, what perception do you guys feel being used when you hallucinate?
I feel like my eyes are processing it, but it is located in the imagination.
If you are aware of your illness and have insight into it’s effect on you than it’s likely why they’d give you BP instead of SZ… There are qualifiers for schizophrenia that go beyond psychosis.
Schizophrenia is a heavy label and I think they try to hold back from putting it on everyone.
I’ve had tactile hallucinations that i feel with my sense of touch and visual distortions that i see with my eyes.
My hallucinations seem to come from outside of my body.
I too was diagnosed with BP first, which they soon dropped because I have no manic episodes. Also they gave me lithium which sent me into a deep depression. So be careful with meds if you don’t have BP, communicate to your doctor.
Yes many people here have internal hallucinations.
My hallucinations are through my eyes and ears. But I get text messages too that are inside my head.
I get audio hallucinations (which have qualities like real sound, so he’s external) and some weird visual ones only occasionally, like a painting warping in front of my eyes. But I’ve also had internal voices that sound different from my own yell and scream things without it feeling external.
Yeah. It’s kinda like that. Loud belligerent thoughts that shape my environment.
Whoa, that’s not just me? Fantastic to know there’s someone else experiencing this weird thing
I don’t know alot no about most hallucinations but mine were like real life only not typical and very rare for me. But I don’t think you are paranoid I think you are worried, could be wrong but my paranoia is at first unrecognizable. Never been paranoid about paranoia
Hallucinations that are internal are something you don’t control. So if you see something without imagining it it is most likely a hallucination. I have visions and see a demon and other beings in my head that are so vivid it’s like they’re standing right next to me. Another way to tell is if the meds make it go away you know they were hallucinations. Good luck 
I also think that @BlindedMind is not paranoid but just worried. If he has concerns about paranoia or hallucinations, he should refer them to his pdoc.
I’m not really worried, it’s more of a spiral of crippling paranoia that I’m slowly losing the fight against my mind and that this is going to get much worse. My pdoctor has me on resperidol, and that cuts the edge off the more negative symptoms, but I’m still hallucinating visually, touchily, and auditorily. I guess I should accept that. I had a bad episode today, and my pdoc basically said the diagnosis might change. I’m more scared than anything of being diagnoses sz. Back when I was younger I still heard the voices and they told me that was going to happen and laughed and mocked me. I know a label is just a label, and that I need to stay calm and treat the symptoms, but if I get diagnosed sz then that means the voices were right. They shouldn’t be right about anything. They scare me.
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