I feel like I want to cry. I’m so stressed with all the things in my life now. Hubbys business stuff. Having had to go to busy traffic Dept today to apply for a new learners. Tomorrow I arranged we go on the three hour trip to see my parents but I wanted to overnight there which I can’t. Hubby is reason and I feel so smothered I can’t even spend a few days apart he wanted me to give my flip flops to charity shop when I like them so much but he says they are bad for my feet are they? Looking forward to seeing my parents but dreading six hours in car (three there three back. At least I’m not driving…)
Tonight feel blank and thinking of my death. Picturing my mom cry over me or my husband. But I’m not going to kill myself I just think of ending it sometimes because everything is too much…