Do I have an ugly soul? 
I really am anxious about this.
My primary dr’s nurse has it out for me. Wants to see harm come to me. She doesn’t do her job. Attacks me verbally. She made me so upset that I said thanks anyway. Now I look like I have an ugly soul don’t I??
No, you do not have an ugly soul.
Maybe you are just an over thinker like me. I always think everyone hates me, when I explain to anyone they say it’s in my head. Donno 
Bitty
I had been cursed my others before. It made me sad and I had to post here and after months I am recover psychologically. I don’t think you have an ugly soul.
I think if you have schizophrenia and somehow manage not being a complete wretch then you have a beautiful sole. I have become more and more cynical over the years. More angry, more resentful. It blows my mind how people on here can be in so much pain and somehow manage to not become evil and addicted but I was weak willed before I got sick.
How would we know?
I have the same worry…
Apparently, its our illness, who makes us think like that now…
I feared for decades , that i am hated and that i’ll be beaten up, i was fearing to lose my life…
I blame myself till hell, that i am too cowardy, cause i had severe paranoia…
After the recent suicide of my nephew, who had the courage to not become worse than he was, idk anymore if i deserve to get over this feeling…
But i suspect, that its precisely the opposite- we have in fact maybe more pretty souls than most of the normies…
Talk to someone about this feeling of yours please…
Hugs to you mainly, cause i feel the same like you now…
■■■■ the nurse, she probably was rude too…
i got a sexy soul 
And what if i was exactly a total wretch for the last 20 years for example??
Idk if i affected my sweet nephew…
That nurse sounds like she was being an ugly soul
I am not sure if anyone has a soul. Do I think you’re an awful person? No.
Sorry for my intrusion but this could help us with Bitty maybe…
@TheLogician , really, i dont want to be rude with you, but my case really was, that i was a total wretch for 20 years, was i an animal too or with ugly heart or an ugly soul? How to forgive myself that from now on?? At one point, i was whining as heck yeap…
Now my life is changed till forever around my nephew, i will continue to learn now from the christian wisdom i hope, i need that now, i need God too now…
I think, that i wasnt with God before, but my father was a commie agent, we never even were mentioning God in my family, when we lived with him… 
Big hugs from me still, i still live quite an isolated life, but i need even this now, i hit my limits too long ago already…
An ugly soul is usually out to harm people. You don’t sound like you do.
No one can tell us here , that those who are given up and are wretches, maybe they are not bad even with that???
I assure you, i was totally lost and whining the last 20 years, i rarely found people, who understood this…
Maybe am a paranoid bpd just too…
I knew lots of despair, now i pay it a bit i think, cause i was in that for too long, yeap-20 years of total given up…
But i want to say, that you can heal even from despair, thats it…
Maybe i saw even other ill people, who never gave up and were totally braver than me…
that’s so so funny @POET .
That’s right @devra .
Or steal some one else’s lifht n golden moments energy n colours n eye out if their real bod n nature n invade space and bully and psychological torture , isolate n exclude take their riches while n try enslave them n make fortune of them while they in real bidy opressed and never get feel like n be themselves hardly and no quality life etc
Make them a isolated shadow who doesn’t feel like themselves and hate in them and they suffer etc
Also fake n pretentious ones .
Such as everyone looking and feeling “perfect “ in what they stole from someone and then all of them attacking that one although they unarmed n peaceful n pretend be nice and fair while attacking and doing horrible.n definitely not nice or fair .
Usually someone has sooooomeone or a group or some support and so but when “they “ bully on all sides of politics and all religions etc because stealing n keep opressed …
All alone amoung such people almost ..
Arrogant stuck up haters …
Yuck !
Lmao thanks :D. I think you have a beautiful soul as well 
Nursing hardens you. You see a lot of people suffer. You see the healthcare system fail people and deplete them financially. Some people can’t turn off the hardness that life does to them. A lot of thick skinned nurses out there. I wouldn’t be offended by a hard nurse. Healthcare is not a personality contest. A lot of bad personalities in healthcare. As long as the job gets done I look the other way when it comes to healthcare workers personalities. A lot of prick doctors out there who are two faced. Good things.