So my dad attacked me kicked me out and threw me to the streets took me off his insurance and blah blah blah
NOW People tell me that he’s suddenly very happy, like he’s changed and he is just a ball of joy! He is the most depressing, miserable, and negative pessimistic person I’ve ever met, and he does this and now he’s happy.
This makes me feel just…good god this does not give me a good feeling about myself. This whole fight with my dad has been the scariest thing to ever happen, giving me flashbacks and trauma and nightmares. I hallucinate him screaming at me all night sometimes and HES HAPPY NOW.
Lately I’ve been feeling so suicidal…not all cus the fight. But I’m just real down on myself. I must be a ■■■■■■■ nightmare to someone. I must be a ■■■■■■■ piece of ■■■■ really. Life sucks, I hate it most days, and I’m just empty.
I’m just spreading wonderful sunshine and joy to the forums today!!!
Your father sounds like a really horrible and selfish person.
I am very lucky that my parents are good, I feel sorry for you @TheStrange
is your dad rich? let him pay you out before he dies. You have a legal right to 25% of all his wealth. Take the money and use it well. Rent a place, get a job or disability (if you cannot work) and make the best of your life wihout him
I’m sorry to hear you’re going through such a difficult time, @TheStrange. Your dad sounds like a real a-hole, don’t let him get you down.
Yeah he has a lot of money but if I went after his money that would make things worse. He’d hate me even more. I’d rather be poor
Try to focus on improving yourself and not being envious of other people otherwise you will be miserable your entire life.
Sorry to hear that you’re so down and I hope you feel better soon.
Thank you. I guess I have to leave him behind and move on. I just wish I didn’t think about the fight because it’s like not in my control. I don’t want to be sad
Please cheer up @TheStrange
Focus on yourself and getting better
Things will get better for you
You’ll See 
You’re so accomplished though! Way more accomplished then me. You should feel good about yourself!
Ems I feel like he tried and failed to love you, and blames you for his failure. I don’t even know you IRL, but if you need some love I’ve got you covered. <3
@Wave I’m trying very hard to cheer up, idk why this is having such a bad effect on me. Thanks
And @SchizoBoy thanks, I don’t feel accomplished though especially right now
Awww @Bee3 that was nice of you to say!!! thank you for saying that to me you seem like a very nice person
At times the pity party is merited and also acceptable.
Like if a vulture just ate the dead body of your kid or something.
Where to draw the line though is always the debate.
“Passing through the corridor i came upon an aging knight who leaned against the wall in gnarly armor.”
Parents are supposed to treat their kids nicely and with love. Even if you don’t feel that love you are supposed to care for them. It is what you are supposed to do. Maybe because he knows that you are actually okay. I don’t know. Throwing away your child like that seems like something a sociopath would do. He could be faking that happiness that is also a possibility. I know that you will get through this.
It’s nice when toxic people stop talking to you- it’s like the trash took itself out.
In what country is that true?
I checked in a legal forum, i was wrong about it. IN germany only after your parents are dead does one have the right to 25% even if they expressly disown you. I had this situation with my dad. If you want your minimum pay out when still alive then its just voluntary on their part. If they agree to pay you out then this usually means you will not inherit anything when they die.
I live with my Dad but he has attacked me many times in my life. He was extraordinarily neglectful of me when I was a little girl. The whole neighborhood molested me while he got drunk on the couch. Then as I got older he became very emotionally abusive. He abused my little brother too. He has been horrible.
The kicker is now he is retired, quit drinking and he is happy. I have never received any accountability or apology but he is just as tickled and comfy as he could be hanging with friends and golfing. I know the feeling. It’s like he doesn’t give a sh*it. It’s like spit in the face. I can’t imagine barking and snarling at my kids and then going and enjoying lunch and laughs with the girls like nothing happened but that is my Dad and, apparently yours.
Your Dad sounds like an abusive douche bag. I know it’s easier said than done but let him go. I wish I could avoid my Dad but I am incapable of leaving. I have nowhere to go. So I fake a smile and we get along when he isn’t being a bitch. Tough going.
YOU JUST BE OKAY. GET INTO SOME KIND OF HOUSING, WORK TRAINING OR EMPLOYMENT & BE OKAY! YOU JUST BE OKAY.
I would hesitate on the relationships for a while EXCEPT for the people you already know. Sadly, some of the worst predators can latch onto a girl in these moments, you need to stick to the people you know who are okay…The men at this stage sometimes breed a new mental illness case and walk away with the babies calling you crazier…
Do not turn to a new church either, some of the wrong kind latch on in these situations and YOU get ruined. Whole church will not discuss whatever goes on and the sicker congregations are HAPPY you are dealing with it, not them…