I have had chronic paranoid schizophrenia for over 20 years now. I am 41 (almost 42). I constantly hear voices like I am standing in the middle of grand central station. I’ve tried all the antipsychotic drugs out there. I am currently on Haldol amongst other medications… no benzos. i dont like those. I have tried talk therapy, medications, and meditating to try to control my symptoms. I listen to music loudly when I am hearing voices. The people I see haven’t been showing up as often… which is good! but today especially I feel like my schizophrenia is pushing me into a downward spiral. The symptoms are just getting worse. I have told my psychiatrist. I am in between therapist at the moment. I should have a new one any day now. I use an online therapist that is pretty much anonymous … i get paranoia too lol.
Same here mate. I hate this disease. I’m always paranoid and lost my girlfriend and can’t go outside. It’s like I’m in jail. All I can say is look to the future and hope they come out with normal treatments, instead of these twisted antipsychotics they use now days.
How come scientists are always talking about this disease being milder for women? Reading some stuff on this site has convinced we that we are all in the same struggle.
I hope you get some relief at some point, it must get to where it feels like there is no way out. Don’t give up and always remember that it could be worse.
Over thirty years here, but no meds. I have found that things are more manageable as I get older, but the real game changer for me was Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I bring it up a lot because it changed my experience and studies have shown it to be extremely effective. Don’t give up or lose hope. You’re still here, and that’s a plus!
I’ve experienced psychotic symptoms since I was as young as 3 years old so that means I’ve dealt w the illness for around 18 years now…depression since I was 10 so 11 years of that…it can be very hard experiencing illness for so long because you don’t see how life can ever change…but I’ve made significant improvements and found excellent ways of coping that in time, and I believe others can too, so hang in there!!
I had to break out the extra prn haldol tonight. I have a prn 20mg haldol as needed. I just took them so hopefully they will stop the voices soon. Nothing like enjoying auditory hallucinations on your day off of work. I look forward to enjoying some quiet if it works. I do therapy too. I will drop her a line tonight and talk to her about it. I get really anxious when symptoms come around. ugh :\