I havent cut in years. Im not depressed but lately like a few times a week I think about doing it. I dont know why and I know its not good plus i already have far too many scars from doing it in the past, but it seems like it would be satisfying to me to do it again when i get these thoughts. even saying that sounds crazy considering i am thinking pretty clearly. Oddly when i start thinking about doing it its not even due to distress, depression or sz symptoms but more like just a slight urge similar to a cigarette craving
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I’ve heard that before, from another member. From a previous moderator in fact.
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Yeah I cut myself during a one time period in my life.
I was having severe mixed states induced by an antidepressant and so I cut away.
All over my arms and face!
I still have faint scars on my arms but thankfully the scars on my face are no longer visible.
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When I get an urge to cut I hold an icecube or snap a rubber band on my wrist. 
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I put TW in title
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Yeah I see that @cigarino
My mistake
My apologies
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I burned myself with a straightening iron for hair about 15ish years ago— that’s the only instance of self-harming behavior I’ve ever had.
However, before meds, I had a pretty bad episode and had a strong urge to gouge my eyes out.
About 3 weeks ago, I also had self-harm urges.
All of these instances were brought on by extreme emotional pain.
In my case, I don’t think my situation is one of habit or addiction. But I could see how it might be that way for some folks.
Please hang in there peeps— pet your doggos, cats, birds, turtles, hippos— and let the feelings pass, as hard as it may be.
Wishing you @cigarino, and all of y’all well.
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I was a cutter. For me it was definitely an addiction.
It gave me a rush of adrenaline and other nice brain chemicals, and I became dependent on it.
You can get addicted to anything that makes your brain release The Good Stuff.
It’s also habit forming, and a (bad) coping mechanism.
So yes, I truly believe it is addictive.
I still get urges now and then, when stuff happens where I would end up doing it in the past.
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Yes I am a cutter and the urge gets strong when I am in mixed state. I try not to cut though it can get tough.
I was self abusive without having to cut myself. Terrible problem.
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