Ok I will get straight to the point and then let the story tell itself.
Are we at war and the governments aren’t telling us?
First the corona virus. I’ve not been too worried about it but with everything else I am starting to. It just keeps getting worse and looks like a biological warfare tactic with it just getting worse and mutating.
Second the terrible storms world wide is it a climate control weapon? Seeding clouds etc.
Third and this is wierd. The British head of Mi6 last month went on live tv news asking it’s spies to be more open with the countries they are in. Basically reveal themselves. ( why would he announce that on tv and not use his organization to contact his spies directly ). Looked like a covert message, the guys name is something Moore if you wanna check.
Getting the population to get vaccinated and under lockdown at times and masked. Hell I’m fully vaccinated and not taking any chances.
Loads of little other things that fit in with my beliefs.
I admittedly do suffer from paranoia and upto now have not been worried about it but events with China and Russia are adding onto my beliefs. I know it’s got to be delusions and I am taking an extra pill for it. But the facts just keep adding up and no one else is seeing it. My wife says maybe I’m onto something which I reply don’t added to my delusional thought as I’m on edge to going full blown with believing it’s the truth. My dr will listen but I don’t want to sit and waste time explaining it all. I’m in a safe country and everything will and would be safe. But I just can’t get this delusion out of my mind.
Hey you can beat me up and say it’s just the SZ but I just thought I’d better let someone else know to help ground me.
Thank you for reading and please don’t go too hard on this thread.
I’m a long term lurker and rarely post. Maybe I’m just watching too much news.
Governments have always had covert operations. That’s just something we should all take for granted, because they always want to know what’s going on in other countries. Nothing to be worried about, has gone on ever since countries started being countries thousands of years ago. It isn’t going to affect the everyday citizen.
As for the virus, it’s just how life is now. Doesn’t matter if it was nature or lab, it’s out there and we have to live with it. If that means vaccinations and masks, well, those don’t hurt anyone. We’ve had vaccinations for different diseases for over a century and they help keep people alive. This one is no different.
I personally caught COVID after my vaccinations had been less effective months after getting them. It helped the symptoms be mild. Right after getting them my family was exposed to COVID and didn’t catch it, it’s just after several months the protection is less effective. So I figure we’ll need boosters every 6 months or so. No biggie, just a little time out of my day.
I think your wife needs to not encourage your delusional thinking. Good on you for telling her not to. Also, stop watching the news for a while. Seek out positive news. I saw some yesterday, I’ll link it in another reply.
@anon4362788 thank you for your reply and everything you said is the rational way of thinking which is why I’ve been ignoring the little things that are all now adding up.
I just needed to let my thoughts flow somewhere out there and not let my current environment enhance clearly delusional thoughts. But I keep getting those ah ha moments which add to the delusion.
I watch the news too much as I’m not in my native country. But I will make an active effort not to watch as much. Even Netflix is dodgy for me. I seek out positive movies. No action, drama, police, true crime etc etc. they all send my paranoia sky high.
Here’s a laugh the most scary movie for me are Charlie and the chocolate factory and the wizard of oz. These two just scar the #¥@& out of me. But my daughters love to tease me with them.
Any good recommendations would be really appreciated for me to avoid adding to delusional thoughts.
Anyway back to my point the mi6 head was a really bizarre live broadcast and very cryptic. Of course I know espionage goes on as do covert ops. It was just so out of the blue to make it set alarm bells off. As I said before I’m in a safe country so can kind of let it go.
Definitely stop watching the news as much. It’ll just make you suffer.
The tricky thing with that is I sleep better and feel grounded with it as background noise while trying to sleep. I’ve got and always had terrible insomnia. It’s treated well now. But I’d like some background noise to keep me grounded as my dreams and nightmares seem far to real and I get lost within them. I’ve tried all the nighttime listening on YouTube and it’s usually just the news which keep me grounded. Mostly the uk sky news. Or nhk Japanese news. Anyone with recommendations please? Got to be something light and fun.
@anon4362788 thank you for your support.
Why must there be a zero-sum game where one wins and the other loses? Can not a win-win scenario be in the interests of all parties?
@yinyang hmmm China and Russia seem to be the bad guys in the media. There is much more going on than being reported I guess. There is no win win when there are deaths involved. Eg. The corona coming out of wuhan and Russia poised to attack one of its neighboring countries. Win win to me would be peace world wide. Win lose is all the crisis going on world wide right now. Sure it’s been worst in history but at the moment it seems to me that both those countries and not only those countries are testing boundaries. Which is so not needed when there is a worldwide pandemic. Phew……I better quit watching news for at least a week and recover as I don’t want to be a conspiracy nut. I’m just letting my paranoid delusional thought take over.
Time for an emergency med I think. I just wanted to put my delusion on paper or the internet with those who can se and understand a delusion.
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