I’ve been thinking about killing myself by inhaling carbon monoxide.
But I don’t know if my dogs will inhale the smoke and that’ll break my heart if they did.
I can’t think of a less painful way to die but I’ve been thinking about it for a while.
I can’t escape this competitive, burdensome society. We’re expected to get A grades in uni, graduate, then be piled in debt, and work for 8 dollars per hour for a stupid job we didn’t want.
Houses are so expensive (they’re at 800,000 dollars right now for an apt) and there is no way that I can get a house when I get older, because they pay you so low. And you can’t get a pension after you retire without owning a house.
I’m mentally ill and disabled, and there are no accomodations in school. You’re just expected to work your butt off but they don’t even look at you if you are from a less prestigious uni.
Even if I become a therapist, they only pay you 2000 dollars per month. Grad school is 9,000 dollars per semester. I don’t have enough money.
Is it even worth it to live??? In this ■■■■ hole of a society that just sucks life outta ya until you are weak and old…like seriously.
Sometimes I would rather die than live my entire life in poverty.
And they expect you to have a child when you get married, but honestly how can I have a child when I’m broke as ■■■■? They are like “oh lol the birthrate is so low, pls produce children thanks” but how can you even get married or have children when you’re broke as ■■■■?
??? life doesn’t make sense, y’all. And the people in the government don’t care.
■■■■ my life.