I had to go to the ER at the insistence of my PCP tonight. As I’ve said in other posts I haven’t had my period and this past Thursday I got it. I called my doctor because I was bleeding so much. Every time I went to pee I put two new pads on because everything was soaked. I never saw as much blood when I was cutting even. My doctor was concerned I may be anemic or have something like a cyst. I right away started thinking “I’m going to have to stay overnight and they’ll have to do surgery.” Plus I hate hospitals. You can’t smoke and the ER is always where I have to go when I have a psych emergency to be sent to a psych hospital. Well I took both electronic hookahs, one melon and one nicotine, cellphone, iPod touch, laptop and charger, two books, and all of my meds. Usually you have to wait a long time. My mom was joking that I was bringing the whole house and where was I going to set up the coffee maker. I’m glad she was joking because when I first woke her up to tell her I had to go she looked at me with daggers in her eyes. She wasn’t mad at me, she was mad at the situation. With my past experience of accumulating criminal charges at the ER my doctor said my mom should stay by my side during everything even when they send me for the ultrasound. After my mom came out into the kitchen to wake up some before we would go she kept making comments that were making me feel horrible. I said “ok you stay here I’ll go” (even though I felt like I was going to pass out) “No! You’ll have my car and then I can’t go anywhere.” “Ok, I’ll call an ambulance and go” “No! You’re not calling an ambulance that will cost money.” She started to wake up though and when I said thank you for taking me she said it was part of what I signed up for. It’s like she was a completely different person. I told Jason I was going and he offered to go with me. Isn’t he awesome!
I talked to the doctor and told him I was already anxious about being in the hospital and that because I was sexually abused, exams are very difficult. So he gave me Ativan. So they did bloodwork, a vaginal and abdominal ultrasound, and a pelvic exam. My hemoglobin was normal and everything else was good too. He said I must be having such a hard period because I haven’t had it in so long. I’m healthy in every other way. I am so relieved.
To treat myself for having a rough two days I bought McDonald’s and my favorite brand of cigarettes. I pigged out and have been chain smoking since I got home. Hope everyone is well!