I have only ever been directed to harm myself and I think it’s rare to be told to harm others. If this is inappropriate, I apologize and please lock it, but I was just curious.
- Told to harm self
- Told to harm another
- Not directed to harm
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@Hedgehog the text for the choice “Not directed to harm” wasn’t showing up so I edited your poll to fix that. Hope you don’t mind.
—Mod-beam
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Thank you, @Moonbeam! 
I was never told to harm others by Voices but I became so Delusional that I feared for my life, I became a danger to others (Homicidal) in self defense.
Yeah I was that psychotic.
I needed to be Involuntarily committed.
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I was not as much told to harm other but I was so delusional and confused that I was under the impression that I had killed some people, including my ex. I was about to hand myself over to the police but got diagnosed and put on meds just in time.
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I would like to kill my ex because he abused our son. But my angel doesn’t tell me to do that, it’s something fueled by my anger and hatred. I never will though, just like I can’t kill myself, I can’t kill anyone else either.
I’m sorry you went through that, @Wave. I think when it’s so out of character and caused by delusions it must be really painful. 
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What if you have been told to both harm yourself and others?
Then you don’t listen to them, and if you can’t, you have a duty to get to a professional to be evaluated to prevent any harm to anyone.
I don’t hear voices but I have. They never told me to harm anyone but I have also been delusional and felt threatened where I could have harmed a stranger accidentally.
Nowadays I think about harming myself a lot, it’s hard to live this way, even without voices the intrusive thoughts and the depression are too much to handle. The loneliness can do it too.
I sometimes think about harming others but there are a few people that I would like to lash out at and that it because I’m angry at my predicament.
I used to not care, my life was good I could come and go as I pleased, make friends, meet new people.
Now I’m a prisoner of mental illness. I can’t do the things I’d like to do. Hell I can’t even converse freely with normal people anymore. This disease steals everything from a person but most importantly it takes your dignity. I went from being the most loveable coolest guy to a complete misfit all because my brain blew a fuse. Yea I think about killing myself every day, and sometimes I think that I would like to bring a few other people with me for the ride.
I try not to listen. Hurting others is really easy to not listen to they’ve only told me to hurt somebody a couple times. As for harming myself that one is harder to ignore but I try to. And I have told a doctor about them telling me to hurt people.
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Hurting others is a trap because you know too much and the ones you know about are trying to torture you unless you go into suicide watch in jail or the jail infirmary (hospital) once in the hospital you spill your guts about what you know. Involuntary means you do not know someone is trying to kill you. Voluntary means you know and you commit yourself until you report. The hospital is their to protect us. Police too you just can not listen to the bad vpices or repeat what they say those are bad people and if you say it and it happens that when you get framed for murder or suicide because you said it out loud and its as if you witnessed a murder to the killer. You do not have to hurt yourself, just check in and tell the doctors what you know until you feel better.
This is beyond reason.
What’s wrong with you people?
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I’m sorry, @MeghillaGorilla1. I do think it must be harder if you were "normal " to begin with. I’ve never been normal. My first hallucinations were at 4, and I never felt I fit in with my peers…
I have been suicidal for over 30 years. It was worse when I was a teenager and young adult. I used to hurt myself more too, but with CBT I’ve been able to improve.
Are you in therapy? It can really help.
Thanks @Hedgehog. I am in CBT and have been for about 6 months. It seems to help out but really I feel that nothing will make this any better. Unless, they come out with better medicine. Better medicine could make things a lot easier.
I’m truly sorry that you’ve had to suffer with this illness for so long. I can’t say that I was ever completely normal but yea 24 was when I developed the psychotic part of the disorder. It’s been 16 years and it gets harder every year. The only hope I have is better medicine.
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I wish you all the best. I had such a life-changing experience through CBT that I guess I expect it to be that way for everyone. I hope life surprises you in a good way and you see things start to improve.
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