I don’t want to totally rely on my husband so tried to do some freelance work. I have two possible work to do: writing or doing graphic design for the fabric producers in my home town. I have some good experience in publishing books but now when I tried to conceive a book I found it’s difficult for me to complete such a huge project as my attention span is very short so that it’s hard for me to sink deep and focus on some details…And then I think I might have gift in graphic designing as I am so sensitive to colors and shapes and have accumulated a lots of knowledge of the patterns of the mix of color and shapes…So I started to learn how to use Photoshop. But gosh, the operation of Photoshop is so complex and I have so much to learn…I felt overwhelmed by the information and knowledge contained in Photoshop.
I was frustrated. Maybe I am no longer fit for learning new things due to this mental illness?