the delusion is back… I believe this psychotic teenager punched in my brains when I was a baby…
and on and on it goes. and where it will land nobody knows.
judy
I will think at times because I am over 55 now that it seems like a good thing that I won’t have to be here forevermore. Nothing lasts forever so just be glad that you are something.lol
the positive thing is , you know it is a delusion…
that is half the battle…working out delusion from reality… 
good on you 
take care 
You can’t change the past, but you don’t have to think about it.