My core belief -that I was tricked into co-creating a make believe universe against my will- continues to make a great deal of sense to me, but finding myself completely removed from the divine source it has become more of an article of faith than anything else.
I don’t think much about it, I don’t believe it wholeheartedly, and most of my being appears committed to the shared world. In short, my so-called delusion has become something of a private joke.
My new delusion would develop an insight/revelation I had a few years ago. As I was walking down a commercial street I was suddenly struck by this extremely tall lady just crossing the road. And then it happened, for a brief moment I saw how she became taller and shorter at the same time. I made the obvious leap: here we have the hitherto suppresd evidence that so called human beings, and for that matter every macroscopic item in our shared world, could be conceptualised as a quantum state and therefore describable by a wave function.
However, following the more deterministic accounts of quantum theory out there, the person/item could, under ordinary conditions, have a more or less fixed position and value. The Heisenberg uncertainty principle would only apply when the demiurge was directly glancing at that person.
Why would the demiurge choose to run the simulation in this fashion I don’t know. It would certainly contradict what we think we know about the universe, the idea that quantum mechanics is the exclusive province of the subatomic world, or that indeed, the macroscopic objects we perceive (Aristotle’s “primary substances”) are made up of smaller constituents. We would be nothing but atoms, in its original, etymological sense.
This is clearly a work in progress. Does fooling around with this sort of farfetched ideas say anything relevant about my mental health? Am I psychotic for even entertaining such possibilities? Thanks.