I can rationalise with myself to think these are false but the thoughts answer back and are like NO YOU ARE WRONG, THIS WILL HAPPEN. And it disturbs me, makes going outdoors difficult .
Here are some examples and the ones I hate the most:
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When I’m out somewhere like in a shop or in the city centre, some people are brought to my attention and the thoughts/voices tell me they are serial killers, they tell me in detail how these people will kill me and I also see the vision in my mind which is frightening and sometimes triggers panic attacks.
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When I’m out somewhere like in a shop or in the city centre, I start worrying people around me can hear what I’m thinking and hate me for it, think I’m a bad and pathetic person. I know they can’t hear my thoughts but I still keep thinking they can hear my thoughts.
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When I am talking to people out and about, e.g. a shop assistant, when we are talking I can see myself from their perspective where they are standing and I look so ugly and deformed, it puts me off my speech.
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Being told if I eat over a certain amount of calories, something bad will happen to one of my family or friends. I don’t want their death to be on my hands.