So my life pretty much fell to pieces last October when I discovered my whole life had been a lie and people had been able to hear my thoughts for however knows long. I went into hospital for a month, I never had voices in my own head until I started the Olanzapine, which I’ve now stopped. Sometimes I still hear them, they tend to rip into me.
Although for some reason, no one is allowed to talk about it and my theory is that if they do, then people will be able to hear their thoughts too.
This doesn’t stop people from being subtle and cracking sly jokes and saying incredibly horrible things.
I’m now too petrified to even go out in public because on top of all of this, I feel like I’ve lost control of my mind (thought alienation) my mind will literally conjure up offensive and horrible things and I’m constantly fighting against it, thinking that it’s not me that’s thinking that. I always balance a horrible thought out with a positive one aswell.
This is categorically not a delusion, this has become my reality and it’s terrifying.
Is there anyone else going through this?