Just had an appointment with my case manager. I have an appointment every 2 weeks at the same time. After my appointment I had to sit in the waiting room to get a shot and there were tons of people waiting for a group. I’ve never seen any of those people before and they were talking about dieting and swearing up a storm. None of them were overweight. My case manager noticed this and I had just been talking to her about thinking there’s spies and she told me I should go get my meds, so I wouldn’t have to be around it. I need to get over this somehow.
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People have believes, you have them also, if your believes are not normal then they will look at you the look,
Be open when its needed but be tight-lipped regularly, you will feel more safe,
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I had this and when I mentioned to my pdoc, she increase my AP.
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Once I thought that all my neighbors are spies.
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In a way it’s kinda smart. If there was a spy though it’s probably 1 in a the last 1,000 people you’ve seen. I was around some shoddy spy work in the Navy. And it just brings up bad memories. I really have nothing to hide though. I think it would be cool to be around a spy.
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I didn’t like the time when I thought people are spies. I thought that they were there to get me. It was awkward.
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I don’t think people are out to get me now though. I was like that in the past. There’s definitely people out there looking for bad people. Then there’s people out there who are trying to figure out why a lot of schizophrenics don’t work. Probably a tiny amount of people are like this though.
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This was the belief I had. “Paranoia delusion” it was because of this which inspired the medications. Having been off medication for 16 months now… I find the most effective way is actually challenging those thoughts and questioning them. I am not in any way advising you not to take medication (before this message gets flagged) I am just saying, fight fire with fire. Use your mind to disabuse the logic or rational behind these thoughts
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Yeah just discussing this makes me feel better.
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Get this had an appointment and someone wore an fbi hat. I tried my hardest not to look at him.
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I think I might be over this. Yes.
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@TheBest I think you can benefit from exposure therapy. I know it’s really hard (I hate doing it imo) but try visiting a local coffee shop and hang out there if you can.
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Exposure therapy did ZERO for me.
Only the meds change anything.
WELL… AND the fact that a buddy of mine came over and we chilled…
I’ve NEVER met him when I wasn’t stoned… it was WAY more fun.
THC doesn’t treat me well, lol.
He and I are gonna start a schizo group with some friends of his!!
OH, right, exposure therapy.
Get your meds stable at a certain dose, then TEST… ONCE… being around people. Just as a test.
It didn’t feel comfortable?
Increase dose, TEST again.
I think I’m ADHD / racing thoughts, sorry if my thoughts seem disjointed.
xoxo
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Spies from above. Quasall
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My friend thinks I act like a spy lol, by the way I look, I come off as inconspicuous.
Spies everywhere … why do you think everything is digital, less paper everyday, more cameras here and there, gps and navigation on everything. To watch us… great now I’m paranoid … sometimes I hate this forum… but mostly the good out weighs that
and THC messes with my paranoia bad !!!
You just have to not care… i dont think any of us are being watched by an actual human though… thats a resource thats not cheap. What threat do any of us truly present that would justify such a resource being used on us… none… even all the digital stuff its nothing personal… if its done on the net there is a record thats just how it is…no worries…
First, that sucks, I’m sorry you have to deal with that as a part of your reality.
The only advice I have comes from something slightly similar. I thought my family and employers were following me, destroying my property, spying, and ultimately planning on killing me. I rarely have those thoughts now, but I deal with it by thinking something along the lines of “if it happens it happens” and “im an open book, I know what I am, so spy away”. It helps me to think this way, maybe it will help you maybe it won’t. Either way I still sleep in my bedroom with the door locked. 
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yeah THC screws with me.
If you’re in a medical marijuana state, ask your MD / pdoc about CBD, though…
Nature’s antipsychotic = CBD
They have some strains that are SUPER high in CBD…
AND
under 1% THC
It would get expensive, though, at least until insurance covers the CBD
As for spying… Isn’t it the FBI / NSA’s JOBS to spy on us??
Or am I misunderstanding