I actualy had a good day. I woke up took my meds got my tax return back. I put 1500 down on a nice car, bought a ps4 and fallout 4. My little monster was in a good mood and used the potty by himself and learned the last of the alphabet he still thinks O is Q but hes 1 anda half and they do look alike. I felt good all day not because i bought stuff but i felt honestly happy today. I still have the voices but its easier to ignore when im in a good mood.
But then the sun went down and im back to pacing the floor and feeling the dread of my new symptoms. I will take this terror at night i guess if i feel like myself and happy during the day.