If so, I regret ever taking the nootropic Piracetam, which may have given me schizophrenia (I took huge amounts for over a year,) or worsened a predisposition for it.
I regret like everything I did while psychotic. I regret not listening to my dad and went to a four year university straight out of high school instead of a community college. My dad didn’t have enough money for that but I just disregarded that and went anyways. I feel like such an ■■■■■■■ about it. Part of it was pride and part of it was fear. I was afraid of going to school where I would see anyone from high school cuz I thought they were out to get me and the pride was that I wanted to go cuzit was a hard school to get into so it was to like show off. I really wish I could go back in time and change that. Would have saved a mountain of debt and helped my dad. The only thing I can do about it now is get a job and live at home and pay him back when I finally get a high paying job. There was a dream I had where I thought God spoke to me and I kind of wish I had asked him what he wanted to do with my life like what is my purpose instead of whining about how I was treated at school. I regret ever trusting my mother in any way shape or form. I should have known better based on her behavior when I was little but I was an idiot. I regret every time I ever hurt other people’s feelings because I was a selfish insensitive idiot. There was one time I was on another forum and I said to another guy that even if he saw fire from the sky fall in command he would believe in Jesus and I kept saying he wouldn’t but now I think about and I regret saying that he wouldn’t believe so much it was so stupid and insulting and for no reason. I was just again being an idiot. I have flashbacks that I forget about soon after that make me feel regret and guilt and I can’t go a week without saying “I hate you” out loud to myself. I can’t forgive myself and I sometimes wish I could just die so I don’t have to struggle with these feelings of remorse and guilt like all the time.
If I have any regrets I don’t remember them now I always Tried to focuson the positive.
I think the mental suffering is over now
But I think once you hit 60 or 70 then you have to start the physical suffering.
I guess it never really ends until you get to heaven.
Only 2 regrets. Touching a ouija board and caving in to peer pressure in high school that made me act like a jerk and lead me to wrong good people who I cared about that didn’t deserve it just to try to fit in better with people who I shouldn’t have cared about.
