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So I Was Once Close To My Family … ,

and We All Talked To Each Other and Such n Such … ,

Now We Are All Scattered and No One Calls Me Anymore … ,

Tha Younger Famule Friends Used To Care For Me and Such but Now No One Calls … ,

I Live With My Dad … ,

He’s Elderly and Ridiculous as ■■■■ (!!!) ,

No Seriously , When He’s At Tha House I Have To Quiet Myself Down To ZERO … ,

I Usually Close Tha Door In Thus Room and Quietly Sing Songs To Myself … ,

e(Y)e and My Pup Have To Walk Around On Eggshells In Order To Keep It Peaceful Here , I Have Yelled At Him Several T(Y)me$ During These Last Few Years and I Am Nothing But A Joke To Him and My Famule … , Since I Am Truly Peaceful They Don’t Even Hear Me When e(Y)e’m Screaming … , e(Y)e’m a ■■■■■■■ Joke … , So e(Y)e Sit and Sing-a-long To Songs I Deeply Care About … ,

In a Small Room ,

e(Y)e’ve Even Put A Sheet Over Tha Blinds in Order To Keep Tha Curiousity Of Neighbors Away From Me … ,

e(Y)e Was Court Ordered To Take Meds and I Was Taken Away From Thus Room 7 T(Y)me$ In January … ,

Then I Was Ordered To Go To Tha Clinic and Receive Needles In My Flesh and Be Terrified That If I made ONE Slight Mistake They Would Take Me Back To Tha Institution … ,

Pretty Cool Life e(Y)e’m Livin Yo … ,

So Whats Tha Point Of Me To Receive All of Thus Old Skool Electric Shock Therapy Nightmare … ,

I DONT HAVE A ■■■■■■■ CLUE … ,

So Tha Question is ,

How Do You Wake Up an Old Bald Headed Toothless Faggot (???) ,

One That e(Y)e Call “dad” … ,

Any Suggestions (?)

Sounds like you’re going through a bit of a rough patch there my friend. Hope you snap out of your funk. You’re a welcome addition to this forum and admired here by more than a few. :wink:

Sad to know, sleepoptimistic. Hope you have better days, you do deserve it.
You are very much welcomed here, we don’t think you’re a joke.

A Bit Of a Rough Patch Is Onli Slightly thee Understatement Of Tha Last 7 Years … ,

e(Y)e make Mistakes Sometimes , e(Y)e Really Do … , e(Y)e’m Naught Perfect (by) Any Stretch … ,

but We Don’t See e(Y)e To e(Y)e On Anything … , He Grew Up On a Farm and I Don’t Eat Meat Because I Spit In tha Face Of Those Who Kill Animals To Feed Thus Populations Hunger For Blood and Bones … ,

Altho e(Y)e Sometymes Buy a Burger Jus To Secretely Say ■■■■ YOU (!!!) ,

To Everything Alive In Thus Universe … ,

I Can’t Even Stand It When I Hear Lawnmowers Because I Don’t Lyke Thee idea Of Grass Being Mutilated … ,

I Eat Soup , and That’s About It … ,

and My Thots Even Go Down Into Particle Ville Because There Is Living Breathing Lyfe Everywhere … ,

Point Is , My “dad” Thinks Killing a Cow For His Hunger and Meaningless Self Satisfaction is Somewhat Glorious because His Belly gets To Feel Lovely … ,

I Jumped Out Of a 65mph moving Clinic Car and It Took That To Get Them To STOP Stabbing Me With Needles … ,

Meanwhile Everytime My Dad Drove Me Up There , (to tha clinic) To Get Stabbed , he Would Laugh about It and Joke Around Saying Some Dumb ■■■■ L(Y)Ke , “haha it wont hurt long haha” … ,

and Emptied Without Any Tears Left I Scream out Into tha Nite Sky With Something Lyke Thus


as my pup quietly whimpers … ,

Thanks Minnii You Are Very Kind …

If it makes any difference, I’m in the same situation. I think a lot of people here are. So you’re not alone in being alone, or having family not care. It sucks though.

I Used To Get a Call Once , Everytime It Was My Birthday … ,

She Would Be Lyke “happi burffdai!!!” ,

and I Would Be Lyke " thanks yo " … ,

One Tyme (long ago) , My Aunt Was using Tha Restroom and My Mom (who is dead by tha way) , My Mom used To have a Disney Knitted Bag In tha bathroom and It Had Some Nonsense In It … ,

N E Hoo ,

One Day My Aunt Went To use tha Restroom and Screamed After She Was There For a Few Min.s , Screamed … “KILL IT< ITS A SPIDER!” … ,

So My Elderly Dad Squished It … ,

Yep Got Rid Of That Monster … ,

I Seen It Walking Away From Tha Bag It Lived In and He Was Pretty Big … ,

You See , I Love Spiders , I Love Tha Webs and I Jus Think They Look Severely Amazing … ,

but My Elderly Toothless Dad Took Care Of It … ,

and He Was a Glorious Hero To My Aunt … ,

and Boomshakalaka a Dead Spider To Throw Away … ,

You See Dear Reader , I Was Extremely Pissed and Pretended L(Y)Ke Nothing Even Happened … ,

Once While I Was ON My (happi burfdai) Relation Facebook Page , I Made a Comment About How My Aunt Killed a “Monster” , and My Happi Burffdai Friend Blocked Me Completely On Facebook … ,

as If Me Talking About What They did To That Creature Was Something Ridiculous and Worth Punishment … ,

after Burffdai Ended Contact With me , I Rolled My e(Y)e’s and Thot , " yep that’s ■■■■■■ up " … ,

Keepin It In tha Family I Suppose … ,

it Does , For When e(Y)e Was Young I Believed In My Family’s Intentions , Thot They meant No Harm and Was Good and Such … ,

I Learned Tha Tough Way … , They don’t Guve a ■■■■ About Anything … ,

Thee Entire Family Cut Ties … ,

My Brother Was Even Worse , He Saw How I Played Thee Autoharp and e(Y)e Glanced At Him As
e(Y)e Was Playing and Seen Tha Look In His e(Y)e’s As If He Found Tha Secrete To ■■■■ Anything That Walks … ,

I Was Slightly Horrified and Kinda Cut Ties From Him As He Changed His Phone Number and Disappeared … ,

Long Story Slightly Shortened , My Family Knows e(Y)e Will Say What e(Y)e Want and That e(Y)e Don’t Play ■■■■■■■■ Slightly Sad Dumb Mental Gaymes … ,

So I Suppose e(Y)e’m Jus Venting Now … ,

but I Can Say Thus Proudly … ,

No One On Thus Planet gave Me ANY Advice … ,

e(Y)e Learned Tha hard Way and My Famule Is Rotting Slowly , but Surely … ,

I Once Read a Text With a Quote From Jesus Where He Says To Some Dude Or Duddette ,

" I NEVER KNEW YOU " … ,

(by) (tha) (way) ,

Tha Knitted Bag With Tha Spider In It had a Picture Of Mickey Mouse On Tha Side Where it Said ,

" Hi There Cutie!!! " ,

Now If That Isnt Tha Saddest Thing To have Witnessed , I Don’t Know What is …

You know, i’ve been through that also. I also hate eating animals, and never hurt a spider also (I like them too). I just don’t cry over it anymore, this society is the way it is, and for us to survive it we have to grow some resilience to it.

I’m very happy your suicide attempts weren’t successful, you don’t know how much I appreciate your presence in this forum, it’s always a refreshing perspective you give.

Like darksith says
Know someone cares :heart:

Lissen Here , LISSEN HERE , STOP IT . Jus Stop It (!!!) ,

When I Woke Up After That Entire Bottle Of Advil Consuming , Tha Sun Was Lightly Flowing Throo Tha Blinds ,

I Said Under My Breath , " I Hate You . " , e(Y)e Felt Friggin Great and Was Ready For Another Dai …,

There Was One Day e(Y)e Was Outside and Looking All Around Tha Mourning Skye and It Was Gorgeous , I Was Standing in tha Middle Of tha Yard and For Tha First T(Y)me I din’t Give a Shazz About Being Spied On (by) My Neighbors , it Was (tha sky) It Was L(Y)Ke a Beautiful Gentle Painting , and e(Y)e Jus Wandered Around and Enjoied Tha Mourning … ,

Then e(Y)e Started Looking Around Tha Neighborhood and NO ONE Was Looking At Tha Sky … ,

Some People Came Outside and Jus Got In Their Car and Drove Away … ,

Tha Skye Was Beyond Amazing … ,

No One , Not One Person Seen it … ,

e(Y)e Felt Saddened (by) Thee idea That a Spiritual being Painted a Living Photo and Onli Got My Attention … ,

e(Y)e Was Surprised That e(Y)e Didn’t Cry , it Was Jus a Strange Peaceful Feeling , and e(Y)e Felt Bad for Tha Gods and Goddesses … ,

but Thanks Again for Your Complement ,

Jus Know That , “everybody leaves when they get tha chance…” ,

At Least After They Suckle On My Endless Light , They Fynde Better Shazz out There Within That Mangled Mess Of Society …,

So What Does One Do (???) ,

I Guess Worship tha Sky and be Patient …

One T(Y)me I Opened tha Door To Get Into Tha garage and a Fairly Large Snake Was Coiled Right In Front Of Tha Door … ,

e(Y)e Was About a Foot Away and e(Y)e Froze … ,

after About two Min.s Of Staring At Each Other , e(Y)e Thot , If He Gets In Tha House e(Y)e Wont Know What To do … ,

So e(Y)e Gently Stepped back Into tha House and Laughed About It … ,

Don’t Know Where Or How He Got Out …

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Yeah I know what you mean.
Once on Christmas time, there was this huge Christmas tree in one of the plazas here in Lisbon (the biggest one in Europe they said)… So I was on a bus and the day was ending and there it was this amazing sunset full of colors and beautiful light over the city, and I spent the whole drive looking out the window to that sunset and I looked around and we were passing through the christmas tree and everbody started applauding… to a fake tree. That sunset was the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen, and just me and another guy saw it. Everyone else was applauding at a tree. lol Ah well.

Should Be My Lyfe Slogan …

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