they really control me and punish me
they are cia and egi
idk what to do ?
they are two inteligence agencies
idk what to do
if i say that i wd become crazy of course
but this is reallity
i cant break their control
everytime i try they punish me hard
even if i try to take medication high dose enough to stop their symptoms they give to me side effects
so i still feel their control
what to do ?
am i in black hole ?
any go through this and succeed to bypass this
is this black hole and i will never
i will never run again as i always like to do
i will never be in good shape and have self confidence !!!
i will never have friends as i always like to have!!
it is horrible i feel like animal controlled
What side effects are you experiencing?
I’m not much of an expert on meds, but I’m sorry you’re going through all this. Did something happen to make things worse?
they treaten me if i say
they will make to me more of it
but it is serious side effects (convulsions )
i only rethinking about how my life is going
and thats how i feel now
Yeah, I know that feeling. Someone told me, it’s okay to look back, just don’t stare. I try to keep grounded in the Here and Now. I’m not sure that helps any, but I feel for you
Do you have something to keep you busy today? Sometimes it helps just to distract yourself until things calm down
The med side effects do sound worrisome
i try
but i wonder if anyone can go out of this black hole and succeed to achieve what they love with no control
is this delusion of control ?
is delusion of control so hard like my symptoms ?or less ?
anyone had delusion of control
tell me what it is like ?
is it like my symptoms ?or not that hard
I can honestly say, I have crawled out of that pit. My life isn’t perfect, but I can do what I love which is music. The Little ■■■■■■■ still try to interfere, but I handle it much better
with you!! all the way.
if i try to go to run one time
they leave me for sometime
they stop me stop me stop
then they make me forget to run
forget to run
make me lazy
then i never run again
then my weight increase as punishment
it is sady
the running i always love to do
i did marathon before
and reached my ideal weight before
before my illness
I’m impressed. I’ve never talked to anyone who has run a marathon before. Can you still do some exercises, just for maintenance?
Exercise always makes me feel better
i walk i like to walk long distances
without making goal
thats what my control hate
if i do
they want me failure
You’re okay. come on, let’s get your groove on again!
sex, energy, good healthy foods, and good running shoes!
You control you.
You’ve just chosen not to.
Take it back.
Then keep walking. It sounds like it’s very good for you. The voices will always try to interfere, mine do anyway. F*** them, don’t give up on a good thing
thank you for your great support
bye
appreciated
Take good care of yourself. I hope you feel a little better anyway