The voices continue to change

[anon74700328]

It’s been a long battle, I spend so much time alone I practically hear voices 24/7. When they first came in they were like sounds coming from a distant radio tower. They were in the background. Thought I was picking up airwaves from someone else. Poor souls who had telepathically came to know me and hated me. I imagined them being bedridden children, who just completely disagreed with me and spent their whole days sending me negative telepathic messages. It was as if our mind were joined together. They could hear me and I could hear them. After a few weeks of being background noise they moved in closer. I still thought they were coming from an external source, I was stupid back then. They would be with me all day, vigilantly waiting to bite my head off and make me question myself. It was that way for months. I was trapped in a world which was strangling my thinking. Time spent with people just left me concerned with myself and my nature, due to the telepathy. Always wondering if it was real. Fooled by my higher conscious into believing in an unreality. Then time spent alone being harassed by voices on the similar topics. As time went on though, the scientific method of gathering evidence led me to believe it wasn’t real. This took a long time, I was traumatized by sz itself. So many memories of hallucinations and scenarios where it just seemed real. Stopping the telepthy was paramount and crucial. I still cant believe I was able to pull it off. Perhaps, I was bound to straighten out as time went on. Without the telepath a huge burden was lifted and it allowed me to see the voices for what they were. Nothing supernatural at all, merely the byproduct of bad chemistry. Like my auditory circuitry started thinking for itself. This was brought on by myself, through the use of cannabis, with a willingness to believe in telepathy, I put pressures on my mind to perceive beyond the self, and all I got in the end were voices. I said once that people used to seem like the cause of my symptoms but they have slowly changed to be a distraction from them. When I get out of the house nowadays, my voices go away, and I just perceive the world as it actually is. I do try to spend time in silence by myself to further train my brain out of this noisy mess. Anyways today the voices are quiet, one lone isolated high pitch whine. Completely mixed in to the ambient sounds of my house and greater surrounding environment. After having a complete total breakdown I am back on track to living a full and intellectually satisfying life. I am excited to beat this and I have a sense that the voices will fade away. They started off really pissed, but it is almost like I have worked with them to recover. Recovery is possible, thanks for reading guys, best of luck. With this illness you need it.