Continuing the discussion from Trip to the ER:
I used/ still fight off a belief that when a person without mental illness… like my sis is in that in between state of half asleep and half awake… that is when they tell the absolute truth.
So I used to… (even recently) go into my sisters room and abruptly wake her up at 2:00 a.m. or 1:00 a.m. and question her about what she’s been relaying to our parents about me… what she really thinks of me… what she actually saw during one of my glitches…
I never got an answer that made sense. So I used to think she was good at masking her mind even at 2:00 a.m. Now I realize that was my paranoia playing up… (I think) … and jumping into her room at 2:00 a.m. doesn’t give me any answers that I need.
So I just have to be content and trust the answers she gives me when she’s fully awake. I think I’m getting better at trusting what people say when they are fully awake.
@SunGirl, that bit you mentioned reminded me of this and how it was pointed out that I haven’t done this in a couple of months. My sis has had almost 2 months of being left alone at night.
Maybe this is another sign of healing?