I guess that’s one way to put it. Getting ill recently has changed me, and it feels permanent and hard to quantify. I think the change is subtle but i can definitely feel it pretty much all the time. It almost feel like some kind of brain damage born from the psychosis, like the brain just got burned out and now the emotions are duller and the cognition is not so sharp. My attention span is terrible now, and I can’t get interested in hardly anything. I used to be able to get engrossed in reading or watching a movie. I might slowly be improving but maybe it takes years. It’s just hard being “well” on the surface and feeling damaged inside.
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I haven’t read a book or watched a movie in years…I think it’s the meds. 20mg of Abilify.
I was like that for maybe the first 5 years ,at various levels during that time. Got used to my meds found better one’s and an antidepressant feel pretty good now . Probably not quite as intouched with my emotions, but it’s acceptable to me . Better than going off and being phsycotic. I can live a full life ,not the dream but OK.
Think “adapt” to the new situation rather than “recover” from it.
It seems to help in making the best of this situation.
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