My ex boyfriend died last week, of a drug overdose, and Im the one who found him. I had broken up with him over the whole situation, and my friend told me he suspected the drug use. The trial with my friend’s cousin is about to come to a close, another drug overdose. I’m in a lot of emotional stress and pain. I’ve never been so hurt. I really cared about the person and I broke up with him and I came over to see if he would take me back, he chose his “lifestyle” in his words, over me because he didn’t want me to get hurt. I was trying to reach him and we had a conversation about the afterlife, had no idea that would be the last real conversation we would ever have. I mean he talks to me, he tells me not to go to his sketchy friends houses or hang out with people like that. He would want me to be taking care of myself and being there for his son.
soory to hear that…rip… we are with u 4 support…
The pain is raw. His son feels it. You feel it. The motions settle out in the background. All emotions you may possibly experience can remain and continue as emotions of grief.
You are a very bright person. No doubt your grief is extremely loud.
I’m sorry you have to go through that. I’m sorry your the one who found him. That is a very traumatic thing to go through. I know it’s not easy… I know it’s going to take a while to feel better and get back on track after that.
Give yourself time to grieve… be kind to yourself… and know there is nothing you could have done. That sort of change comes from within. He sounded like he was too far in the grips of addiction to come out.
My sis and I both lost an ex to drugs. It’s heart breaking. There are never words that can heal that.
I’m sending the best vibes I can.
I found out from his family he had been struggling with addiction and his father said for about eighteen years. I did try to help stop him, but it is more hard to know he’s not here to protect or care about me. I found he had stolen things from me the day he overdosed, when I was left alone at his house even though I had moved out a week before, my dad was in Chicago so no one was there to help get me out and I was left there from morning until evening while he was at the hospital, and my best friend Jorey came and rescued me. He helped me get my car out from the driveway and make sure the dog was inside and we locked the doors. But that was too much for me. Now that they took my phone these junkies are going to be freaking out and who knows what. I didn’t have to give out the name of the man he may have bought it from the cops just looked at the last three calls my ex made and he told both his son and i the name of the person he was going to, Im just so sad I want him back.
I am truly sorry for your loss @StarryNight
Yeah thanku Im trying to figure out what to do Im gonna call my psychiatrist actually.
Cant really get ahold of psychiatrist to make appointment but I bought some books and stuff im gonna write a story and comic book.
Take time to let yourself heal and be extra especially good to yourself while you are in mourning, this can be a hard time for people like us. We are here for you.
Thanks…
wow @StarryNight I am just now seeing this post…I am so sorry, you must be in trauma, please just lay down on bed and take slow breaths for about an hour…I hope you settle down and not be in so very much pain. I am sorry.
Strongly suggested: Levine, S. & O.: Who Dies? An Investigation of Conscious Living and Conscious Dying, New York: Doubleday, 1982; and Kubler-Ross, E.: On Death and Dying, New York: Macmillan, 1970. Two of the very best books on processing grief. You’ve got a good support system here. Stay close.
finding a dead person is not a nice experience, i am sorry you had to go through that especially someone you cared for.
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hug
take care 