That I have found in myself upon reaching stability & having well-functioning meds is that I can FINALLY understand why some people want to live as long as possible. Really all I used to look forward to before stability was my eventual death, hoping it would come sooner rather than later. And now that I have my energy back, my functioning, my concentration & motivation back, I now feel like there’s not nearly enough time to accomplish everything I want to. I DREAD death now because there’s just so much I want to do. I’ve gone from surviving to really living…
There are still difficult times…but wow the difference is night and day from before. To anyone who feels they have lost all hope and felt the same way I did please know things can change, and hang in there!!