“So you want to control fate.”
I told him I’ve seen them rising from the shore
I said I have stopped time, and fallen before
like going backwards through time
I asked what it was for too late
The rain was love’s divine crime
Or did the rain just love dying more than I
loved the high sublime.
“So you think you can bend time.” Possibly
or there is more than one time in my memory.
A cyclone dissolved like the medicine in my brain
A mystery that was solved because of the insane
He took me for a drive up the highest mountain
He showed me his pocket knife with my initials
in them; I walked between worlds
saw both of your faces but each one was the
same and neither had the right address.
I saw through the wall, I felt you tremble
beneath me the bullet train melodies
From knee deep pain to Nevada deep creek
And gambled beside men and fallen
like autumn leaves fallen from grace
I won’t ever go back to school, misplaced
I’ll join the names of the overcome.
He showed me a bridge over water
dared me to kiss him: but I turned away
He showed me how much it hurts on the inside
I’m a rapid cycling river, I burnt the effigies
I want to stop dreaming about the future
and have these paranoid delusional theories
I was born cursed with deathly abilities
He said no one can hear you when everyone
is listening. I woke up and then
I can’t control the voices in your head
but I know your next to me, sleeping.
I rewrote the code, I unlocked the motherlode
I was once someone different, less remote.
“So you can control fate” I hate you
He said as he wants to move shapes but
I ripped him apart and made him a soul
with a ruby red heart on a chain
steel is the cage the bird cries lullabies
“Do you want to control time?” He surrendered
to my crime. He surrendered to my lies
but I just want to fly away.
“Do you think you can control destiny?”
Why won’t you stop tracing my footprints
every shadow has a secret force, electricity
an ultimate power source, a generator of sorts
the shapes I have been making as my imaginary
hands are waving your anagrams in the air
of shape-changing darkness.
You can’t get this. You were never here.
You could just disappear.
You serve atoms like stars mimic mine
and my losses now are
the ghosts in a starry ocean
he screamed let me out let me out and then
he screamed and screamed let me tell you this
It’s not what you think who I am.
Wanna leave me in a fever
“So you want to free your mind.” Depressor
The safe was already open
when you got there; Surrender to Love
You, infinite pretender, because your
original sins were miracles and your lies
were the empirical devices for the
matrix you are trapped inside, forever
I now have them all under my command
I know that your type can’t understand.
You have been programmed by
a great engineer; you can’t crack the
code. I wrote the cypher
of a new kind of simulated disorder.