As schizophrenic I experience extreme delusions and my mind has battles with thoughts which is just my own thoughts but feels like something other than myself. I think I’m paranoid that someone out there knows what I’m thinking and they are judging me and criticizing my thoughts, in extreme situations of being in thought I fight with demons and religious people.
I find my mind to be either someone else or a flattened emotionless state of dumbed down thoughts with no inspiration or motivation. What can I do to better my mind so that I feel alive and human again. I cope OK at work, I study and pass but when I’m alone I feel like my mind is broken.