I had ECT today and I’m back to myself. I see now that I was psychotic this past week. Last night it got really bad. I went out to dinner with my mom and a friend of ours. My mom and I got there first so we waited at the bar for a table. My mom kept looking at the door, to look for our friend, and I thought because she has been communicating with the people messing with me they were coming to get me. When we got our table there were hidden messages in everything. After we ate our salads my mom took my used napkin and gave me a new one. I asked her why she did that and thought they told her to do that. At one point my mom and our friend were talking about a patient of theirs, as they work together. I couldn’t pay attention to the conversation but certain words stood out and I was convinced they were talking in code about me. They said they weren’t, but because they have both had the flu vaccine they were doing it without realizing it. I strongly believed that the flu virus was introduced to the public in order to introduce the flu vaccine. In the serum are nanobots that cross the blood brain barrier and once they are in the brain they control behavior. I was so scared last night, but today after ECT those thoughts went away. Even the demon isn’t here and he’s been hanging around a lot recently. The other day when I was taking a shower he was in there naked with me, but I think that’s from the PTSD stuff that therapy is triggering. The doctor that administers my ECT said to take my Geodon twice a day again as these problems started when my pdoc told me to take it all at night. They also said six weeks is too long between treatments and scheduled me to come back in two weeks. It’s amazing I have been feeling suicidal recently, and that went away too.
Thank you to everyone who supported me while I was struggling. It made me feel not so alone. 
I’m so glad you checked in. I’ve been hoping you’ve been doing OK.
Huge sigh of relief that you got back on track and you feel better. Glad to hear it.
Glad the demon is gone too.
Thanks so much J. It really means a lot to me that you care. Seriously, thank you.
Glad you are feeling better @SunGirl - thank God for these treatments 
Thanks @Wave. I don’t know where I would be without them.
yay! sooo glad to hear ur doing better hunni. welcome back to reality. xxx
i am glad you are feeling better…sorry i could not read your last post, i could not concentrate.
take care
I am glad your delusions are gone after ECT treatment, Sungirl. Hope the adjustment of Geodon works for you.
Hope you feel better soon, it sounds like you’ve been through a lot!
I am so glad you are feeling better. Sorry you had to go through so much.
Been there one day. Wish you a peaceful recovery