Hi, I’m new to posting but I’ve been reading this forum for a long time (so I feel like I already know many of you). I could really use some help. I’m sorry if this post may be triggering to any of you.
I’ve heard a nasty voice in my head that says I’m “going to hell” for a long time. I first heard this voice in the woods when I was camping with my family when I was 5 to 6 years old. The voice asked me “how would you like to go to hell?”
Basically, now, this voice goes on and on about everything I’ve done wrong in life and says that I’m doomed. Lately the voice has been saying that “hell” is a “coffin” and that after I die I will wake up in a coffin. They say I’ll be trapped in that coffin for all eternity (and it doesn’t matter how many good things I do, it will never be enough to make up for what I’ve done bad). The voice says that he will make a clone of me in the afterlife so that nobody will know I’m in the coffin.
What makes things worse is that the voice now says I have ALS (or Lou Gehrig’s disease) ever since January 6. Every day I feel like my legs are atrophying and getting weaker, although I keep praying to God to make things better. So I’m worried I may die in a few years in a terrible way.
So I’d like to make friends here if I could. If anyone has any kind words to say I would really appreciate it. Does anyone else have voices that say they are “going to hell” or something similar to that? I also hear a positive voice sometimes that says nice things to me, but I have a hard time listening to him though. I tend to believe what is bad instead of what is good.
I’m diagnosed Schizophrenic. I take 600 mg Clozaryl and 4 mg Haldol each night. I know it helps because I can’t sleep without my meds. I get kept up all night by the voices.
Well at least you know that it is a voice and not someone communicating to you that is a positive. Also I know that you aren’t going to go to hell because a voice tells you. I personally believe that the delusions are worse than than hallucinations. Although hallucinations could be pretty bad if they are shouting at you all day long. Are your hallucinations quiet enough that you can ignore them? When I take my meds they make them so quiet during the day I don’t even know that they are there.
You could try to talk to your doctor to get your meds increased if your symptoms are getting worse. I don’t know how to get the voices to talk about something else. Other than to talk to them which is bad because it seems to spiral you into getting delusions. You could use CBT to make sure you don’t think that it is a real voice.
I’d say that listing to that voice is the real hell, and quite honestly, if everything I was to say and do makes no difference in my life, then I think I’d just have to realize that it hadn’t happened yet and I’d do what the heck I’d feel was best for me.
Screw that voice for being such a downer, it can go bug someone else.
If you listen to something long enough, the chances of it eventually being right go up.
Best to cut your loss with this voice by asking it what’s the next winning lottery numbers are, then move on in the direction that when you look back in 20 years, are good for you.
I have had sacreligous blaspheme in my head for 5 years.
3 years ago, I managed to get a window of insight that it was all just my symptoms, and I reshaped my reasoning to not believe this is of some “entity” or demonic voice, so thinking of such just flows over my head, as I don’t even depict it as this way anymore.
Feel free to message me if you want to talk about my reasoning and experiences, as understanding that you are not alone helps to get your mind on a better map.
I believe that we all have a virtual audio tape in our heads, so when your parents or “friends” say bad things about you it goes on the audio tape. After hearing these negative messages over and over we say negative things about our selves. Here’s the good news: That virtual audio tape that’s in your head can be rewound to the beginning, and positive messages can be recorded over it.
I grew up in a muslim community full of the sounds about sin and hell and …I suffered from thoughts of being sinful and I imagined myself in hell but these are not true. Human are curious and do things which are not convenient or even done before or assumed as sin but as I said even if all humans of all time say sth identical that does not mean its true. Dont be afraided these are your culture which your mind imagine. Feel free to talk to me about such things.